pang-asar...

Sa wakas, nagkaroon din ng oras para i-update itong blog ko. Humigit kumulang walong buwan ko rin itong hindi nabisita. Masyado lang naging busy(hehe). Anyway, sa walong buwan na yun, masyadong maraming bagay ang nangyari yung iba nga limot ko na. Sayang at hindi ko yun nailagay dito. Pero kapag naalala ko po ung iba, i-popost ko yun dito.

Sa ngaun, kaya ko naisip na tumambay dito dahil sa kaasaran ko sa mga tao sa paligid! Lalo na doon sa isang taong masyadong nagpapa-awa. Imagine, sa loob ng walong buwan grabe ang pagkainis ko sa kanya, as in! At araw-araw pa ung lumalala. Alam nyo ung pakiramdam na kung pwede pa lang manakit ng kapwa eh matagal ko ng ginawa. Pasensya na, grabe lang talaga ang inis ko and this is my way of somehow getting rid a little of my irritation.

It starts in a very simple situation. Let me tell you the history of this vexation. Asa canteen kami nun at ang napapagusapan ay sahod kasi that time, eh malapit na ang sahod. Sabi nitong "HL" na 'to (kayo na bahala kung ano magiging meaning sa inyo ng HL na yan, basta sakin yun na yun.ahaha). Sabi nya, "Wow, 22 nanaman pla magsasahod na, I know my additional payment nanaman ako." Sa amin kasi every 22nd of the month eh my additional renumeration na matatanggap and isang empleyado as his/her means of INCREASING OUTPUT. Ipagdidiinan ko talaga and words na "INCREASING OUTPUT"(hehe). Sabi kasi nya almost every month nakakatanggap sya nun. So lahat kami sa table natahimik pagkasabi nya nun. Napag-isip kami kung bakit siya laging meron? Hindi naman sa nakafeel kami na maging isang "green-eyed", Kasi naman, we know all our capabilities. Kung iisipin nga she's not really deserving for that kind of positive reinforcement noh! Why? Kasi sa lahat ng bagay eh huli sya, from having the power to produce and the caliber of her work is not that fair. Pero tanong namin bakit sya?

Porke ba wala syang absent? Porke ba pagsinabihan siyang please render extra time? In short pagiging masunurin, yun ba ang nagiging basehan kaya siya every month meron ng extrang yun? Ganun din naman kami eh. So what's the real reason ba behind all of this? Kaya eto ngaun, grabe talaga pagkainis ko sa kanya. Ang manhid-manhid pa, dami na naasar sa kanya, tapos sa kanya, wala lng. Hay naku kung pwede lang talaga tirisin sya ng pino-pinong, ginawa ko na. Minsan pa nga nakakuha xa ng kakampi c ting pating, isa rin yung epal. Talo ba ang bakla, masyadong madamdamin, iimik tapos biglang hindi, talo pa ang nagmemenopause.

WARNING: Folks, pardon me for what I'm writing on here, if you don't like this article please do not continue to read.

Anyway back to my pique. Itong "ting" na ito eh tinaguriang "motoon" I don't know what other term ang applicable sa kanya basta yun na yun. Siya ang spokesperson ni HL, kasi nga pareho sila!hehehe. Marami silang kakampi gaya na rin ni silent mode pero once na nagsalita na sya tagos hanggang kaluluwa mo at halatang my pabor talaga kna HL at ting. Imagine, hindi nya inaapura yung dalawa ng basta-basta unlike ng ginagawa nya samin. Ni hindi nga nya masabihan na tapusin agad ginagawa but instead, rison nya okay lang basta ginagawa naman! OMG talaga. One time pa my nagsabi sa akin na, mas okay pa c HL kasi kahit konti ang nagagawa eh hindi naman nag-i-idle compared to ME na maraming namang nagagawa eh ma-i-inidle naman. Gudness what more if hindi ako mag-idle, dating triple na nga nagagawa ko kapag my idle pa ako hindi pa kaya, well, sobra naman ata. Have you ever asked yourselves kung bakit minsan tinatamad gumawa ang isang tao? Dahil sa prejudice ninyo-- obviously.

Opps teka, teka lang ang puso ko mejo humihigpit na, let me inhale and exhale. Hay naku kung laging ganito talaga ang iisipin mo tatanda ka bigla. Anyway, makakaasa ka HL na patuloy kang makakatanggap ng mga salita mula sa akin. So better kasi accept mo sa sarili mo you're not deserving for any of the benefit you're receiving. Ang kapal mo naman talagang tanggapin lahat ng iyan kahit na alam mong kahit sarili mo dinadaya mo! Mabuti na lang at paalis na c ting, mawawala na ang isa pang epal...hahaha!

Well, my nalaman ako at ngaung umaga lang ha, may nakita ako evaluation for the second quarter, attitude ko towards co-employee is 1%!hahaha, 3% is the highest, I'm the lowest. Well, bakit ayaw nila ng prangka? Mas okay na sa akin ang mababang evaluation kesa makiplastican sa mga taong ayoko at feel ko rin naman na ayaw sa akin! Mas diko maaatim na makisalamuha sa kanila, nakakapangilabot! LOL...

Oh well, hanggang dito na lang muna baka ma-ban na itong blog ko. Ito lang talaga ang araw na natiempuhan na super badtrip ako. Somehow nakakatulong talaga pagnailalabas ang kainisan kahit sa ganitong paraan.

decision

Who would have thought that I would end up in this kind of situation. Hoi polloi never really expected that I can do these things. They are having a hard time to accept the matters that happened in my life. Some were unbelievably angry with the decisions I made. Some threw virulent gossips. Some turned their back. Others felt ruefulness. Some are very disappointed. I think only my foes were so glad about what I have encountered. They are really so thankful that I go down.

Chemistry is a difficult thing to put your finger on… why you are attracted to one person and not another. They say that adventure leads to spicing up a relationship or in my case, creating one where none really existed. I cannot say why, only that is was so. I got a bad case of hot chemistry, faster than you could say “off limits.”

Even though I normally have a pretty fair sense of right and wrong, when my heart becomes engrossed, it is easier to stop stampeding horses than to stop its demanding, galloping forward. I knew it was wrong and still, gave in to its insatiable appetite.

I've learned so much from this experience. Foremost, never ever give up. Accept all the realities and facts of life. Prove to all that you are making your life back on track even if still, they cannot swallow the situation you are in. I can be weak and I can be strong. I can fight and I can also be modest. I will continue to live life and be happy for the small things that I have and do things to improve my way of living.

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BiTz of ReaLity

The most PAINFUL type of love there is, is LOVE that is left NAMELESS. A love that cannot be expressed. A love that is considered to be intemperately guarded. A love that cannot be accepted of all the great unwashed. Affection is left unshown. It's a love that hides behind a mask of happiness and mirth. Yet, all that's felt down deep inside is pain, misery and annoyance. It's the love that tries to hide away how much it really cares. It keeps locked within its heart and the feeling is flowing alone. This love recoups touching, afraid of what it would say. And the most atrocious thing about a concealed love is that, IT NEVER FADES AWAY!

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