aNaku

For my little girl-- anaku!

I as a mother, working at the same time, I don’t have all day to spend with my baby, So as much as possible, I try to reach out, to know her through other people like my neighboors and her nanny. It's hard to be as a working mom, kasi hindi mo nasusubaybayan ng maayos ang paglaki ng anak mo. Minsan nga masakit unawain na mas kilala pa ng anak ko ang nagaalaga sa kanya kesa sakin. But what can I do, I'm working because I'm doing it for her own good. so that I can provide her with the things she needs. Kahit na kapalit nun oras sa kanya. Pero pagkagaling ko naman ng trabaho kahit pagod na pagod na ako but once makita ko na anak ko hay, nawawala lahat ng pagod ko. And cute na nga eh, naguumpisa na siyang tumayo, minsan nga para nakong baliw kasi naluluha ako everytime my bago syang natututuhan.

Anaku, I have written three letters to you with a paper and a pen since you were born, kahit na hindi mo pa mababasa. They are sealed and hidden somewhere sa mga gamit ko. Maybe they will get lost in some time, or maybe you will find them years from now at mabasa mo at hindi ko alam magiging reaction mo, kung matutuwa ka o maiinis sa kakornihan ng nanay mo.

Anaku, gusto ko lang naman sabihin na, I hope you ne'er miss your sense of curiosity. You get your satisfaction to eat but always keep that crave. May you never take one single breath for granted. God forbid love ever leave you hollow handed,I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean. Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens. Promise me that you’ll give faith a fighting chance. I hope when you grow up, you can understand our situation. Yun lang naman at wala ng iba, basta lagi mo lang pakakatandaan na mahal na mahal na mahal kita. --nanay...

iNaKu

God gave me listings
of mother's names
and pictures of them too.


I searched and searched
they all looked the same

and then I saw you.

Who is this woman?

I asked the Jesus

She looks quite dainty to me.

You have chosen well my child.

And he spoke these words to me.

She is kind and soft

and very wise

and she will hold you

close to her

when you cry.

Her eyes will shine

when you take your first step
and smile at your delight.

She will show her pride
when you succeed
and pick you up
when you fail.


She will work hard
to give you the best she can
and rock you to sleep with weary time worn hands.


She wil shelter you
on stormy days
and drie your fears away.


She will bask with you
in sunshine on
sunny summer days.


And when you are grown
like you soon will be
She will still be there
To comfort you.


I choose her.
I told the Lord
For none like her
I've seen before.
And the day came
when I was born.

I had chosen well
of this I'm sure.
I picked you
above the rest
and because I did
My life is blessed

did it happen???

I woke up in the morning-- feeling flummoxed, had what happened yesterday really happened? Did I really mean all those things I said? How am I going to face him everyday? Ideas swimming through my head, my heart pounding, frightened, bewildered, anxious but also quietly happy that someone could feel those things about me, someone i felt the same about. That rarely happens. Most of my previous relationships have been either me falling in love and not them or vice versa. But it can't happen-- it's just wrong, what would everybody say, I would be vituperated, a pariah, and everything I have worked hard for in my life, all my friends, my family, my reputaion would all be ruined. But what's really important here, if this is love, does all that matter, they say love will conquer all. What if this is it, my one chance, he's the one, that we were meant to be together, but a cruel twist of fate threw us apart, or maybe it was fate that had brought us together. We were indeed a modern day version of romeo and juliet, wanting to be together but knowing our families would do everything in their power to pull us apart if they ever found out. Would this modern love story end in tragedy too? Was this what it felt like for Charles and Camilla? Two people in love, wanting to be together, but family commitments keeping them apart, but that was meant to be, through everything they have been through they are together now, and still in love, what if this was my love story? It's indeed too perplexed but I'm embracing all the consequences that this may entail. It's not his fault or my fault-- it's nobody's fault. We made a promise that all the things that may hamper our way-- we can outdo it. As a title of the song says, against all odds. We'll be strong, no matter what happens not for us, but for our little anaku!...

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ANAKU

I desire to give you everything,

a good life,

a considerably good didactics,

all the opulent matters,

all the tenderness...

all you want!

I can't endure to see you suffer

anguish,

any illness,

hurt,

trouble,

famishment

torments and

agonies that this world can bestow...

It would be my pleasure to

serve you,

attend to your needs,

love you,

pay attention to you,

teach all the good things

guide you...

I will not get tired of,

kissing,

cuddling,

hugging,

playing with you...

without you,

I will be lifeless,

exanimate,

my world would be empty-bellied,

it will not be complete,

I would be gaga,

I'll loose my control...

I hope when time comes you take as your

friend,

teacher,

sister,

father,

brother

and I will always be at your side...

today, and for the days to come you will be

my strength,

my happiness,

my world,

my inspiration,

my elements,

my fortress

my everything...

I'll do all things to make you feel secured

I won't let somebody harm you

I will devote all my life to you

I can take all the sacrifices because of you

And I will be always here when you needed me

because NANAY, LOVES YOU SO MUCH!

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my nHar-- yna

when you came into my life
you added so much felicity in my spirit,
you taught me how to love and beloved.
you showed me how to give tongue to my emotions...
some say loving you is quite perplex
others told me to forget you
but i refused
they have tried to break us
we are conftonted with many troubles
we had been in a state of affairs
but i'd fight for you against all odds
i want to grow old with you
i want to take good care of you
i want to show you how much significant you are
i'm blessed,
i'm lucky
i'm thankful to you have you
you bring so much joy in my loneliest day
you lightens up my mood when i'm so weary
i feel so secured when i'm with you
all my vexations, dreads and uncertainties faded...
you gave me hope,
you boost my confidence,
you gave me strength
and most especially,
you gave me my everything-- YNA!

uoy evol i

I love you,

Not only for what you are,

But for what I am

When I am with you

I love you,

Not only for what

You ave made of yourself,

But for what

You are making of me.

I love you

For that part of me

That you bring out;

I love you

For putting your hand

Into my heaped-up heart

And passing over

All the foolish, weak things

That you can't help

Simply beeing there,

And for drawing out

Into the light

All the beautiful belongings

That no one else had looked

Quite far enough to find.

I love you because you

Are helping me to make

Of a lumber of my life

Not a tavern

But a temple

Out of the works

Of my every day

Not a reproach

But a song.

I love you

Because you have done

More than any creed

Could have done

To make the good

And more than any fate

Could have done

To make me happy.

You have done it

Without a touch,

Without a word,

Without a sign.

You have done it

By being yourself

Perhaps that is what

Being a special friend means

After all.