aNaku

For my little girl-- anaku!

I as a mother, working at the same time, I don’t have all day to spend with my baby, So as much as possible, I try to reach out, to know her through other people like my neighboors and her nanny. It's hard to be as a working mom, kasi hindi mo nasusubaybayan ng maayos ang paglaki ng anak mo. Minsan nga masakit unawain na mas kilala pa ng anak ko ang nagaalaga sa kanya kesa sakin. But what can I do, I'm working because I'm doing it for her own good. so that I can provide her with the things she needs. Kahit na kapalit nun oras sa kanya. Pero pagkagaling ko naman ng trabaho kahit pagod na pagod na ako but once makita ko na anak ko hay, nawawala lahat ng pagod ko. And cute na nga eh, naguumpisa na siyang tumayo, minsan nga para nakong baliw kasi naluluha ako everytime my bago syang natututuhan.

Anaku, I have written three letters to you with a paper and a pen since you were born, kahit na hindi mo pa mababasa. They are sealed and hidden somewhere sa mga gamit ko. Maybe they will get lost in some time, or maybe you will find them years from now at mabasa mo at hindi ko alam magiging reaction mo, kung matutuwa ka o maiinis sa kakornihan ng nanay mo.

Anaku, gusto ko lang naman sabihin na, I hope you ne'er miss your sense of curiosity. You get your satisfaction to eat but always keep that crave. May you never take one single breath for granted. God forbid love ever leave you hollow handed,I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean. Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens. Promise me that you’ll give faith a fighting chance. I hope when you grow up, you can understand our situation. Yun lang naman at wala ng iba, basta lagi mo lang pakakatandaan na mahal na mahal na mahal kita. --nanay...