I have been having these feelings lately, like you're out there searching for me. We ended on such bad terms and I ache for that closure we never attained. It's not that I loved you, I have moved on but I still do love you from afar. There were so many things left unsaid, so many harsh words, so much pain and then the silence. I remember seeing you that night and you walked out mumbling something about our misunderstanding. I understand why you felt that way, but that would have not happened. I get phone calls at my residence from people we know asking about what our problem is. And it is really weird. I ignored them, because I would not tell them anything even if I did. I hope you're okay and doing well, I miss your sense of adventure as I have become quite the homebody and I miss just having fun. But don't get me wrong, I am happy now. But there is always going to be that part of my soul that is going to drift and try to find answers to questions that haunt me to this day. I am sorry about all that crap that went on in our pasts, it was so intense and life changing. Please know that I have forgiven you, and I hope one day you will find it in your heart to forgive me too.
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