oUch iT's hUrts

Andito ako sa opisina, nasa harap ako ng computer ng may ideang pumasok sa isip ko. Wala lang, basta na lang nag-pop-up bigla. Siguro kasi nabobore na ako ng konti sa pagtatrabaho, linggo kasi ngayon idagdag pa na konti lang ang tao dito. Wala ako masyadong makausap, makaharutan kasi hindi nagsipasok. Okay lang na gumawa ako nito total naman, eh quota na ako![hehehe]. Hindi lang ako ang nakaramdam nito-- ng ganitong klaseng sakit ng loob, siguro kayo rin. Ewan ko kung makarelate kayo, pero sa pag-iisip ko, eto ang ilan sa mga bagay na talagang naginf dahilan para sumakit loob ko, mga bagay na mahirap tanggapin [di ko kayang tanggapin- april boy?hehehe]. WHAT HURTS -

- letting go of a person you've just learned to love.
- reminiscing the good times you shared together.
- shielding ur heart to love somebody.
- trying to hide what you really feel.
- trying to hide the tears that involuntarily fall from ur eyes.
- loving a person too much without loving you in return.

- giving up someone you never thought of giving up.

- having the right love at the wrong time.
- taking the risk to fall in love again.
- hiding your relationship from someone else.
- controlling ur feelings to avoid hurting a friend.

- thinking of him every waking and sleeping moment knowing all the while that he never even thinks single thought of you.

- letting go, because everytime you see the person, you only fall deeper.
- holding back only to find out when it's too late, you both felt the same way, but were only scared to lose each other so much that you didn't let the feelings out.

- falling inlove with someone you didnt mean to fall inlove with.

- finding the perfect man, with only one problem, he doesnt love you.
- helping the one you love court your friend
- seeing the one you love crying for someone else.
- the waiting also hurts like hell.
- having to hear "I've met someone"
- agreeing to his wish to 'just be friends'.
- asking his freedom back b'coz 'he'd be happier with her'
- asking you to 'forget what everything happened' and be 'normal' friends again.
- hearing that you're treated as a little sister.

- sharing his future plans for the girl with you.

- you stopped being friends b'coz her bf/gf asked her/him to.
- being denied in front of people.
- telling u lies where he'd been when actually, he was with a 'new friend' or an 'old flame'!
- she told you she'd be leaving you to return to her ex (d one she left 4 u!)
- breaking someone's heart.
- fighting for that one thing that would make you happy.
- holding on to a person who can not guarantee you his commitment unless he fixed himself, then, you are left hanging for the moment, then he says, time will tell but you still decided to hope in him and trust him

- pretending you're fine but the truth is you feel like dying.

- pretending to be strong and recognizing your weakness
- lying in bed each night, thinking of that special person you can never have.
- being with someone you can't actually love.
- pretending you don't love a person whom you actually love.
- being in love.
- letting go even if you really don't want to having no right to say you are hurting, because it was your decision.
- seeing the person you love and was hurt because of you and not being able to help that person...
- having the courage to say I LOVE YOU to the person you love and finding out afterwards that things will never be the same again when he doesnt treat you with the same closeness as before
- having to face the fact that someone is capable of completely destroying the wall that you have set for yourself, leaving you weak and vulnerable.
- admitting that you love someone despite his imperfections
- finding out that the more you try to hate him, the more you end up loving him perhaps even more than before.
- realizing how stupid your mistakes were that led to your break-up.
- the thought that this guy, used to really love you and you loved him as well but you didn't give enough and he gave up on you
- sharing the one you love with somebody else.
- making a promises and realizing that when the time has come for that promise to be delivered, the commitment is no longer there.
- you sacrifice everything but he never sees it and still opted to leave you because he feels that it's still not enough
- the hardest thing about love - believing it exists.




After you've been hurt...
...learn to forgive
...learn to trust and love again!



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